November 5, 2014

This separation, this walk through wilderness
It may be making me sad, tearing my soul.
But somewhere deep within me, a voice says
That this is the best path, for you and for me.

For I fear that the baggage of my past,
Is too heavy even for the both of us to carry.
I fear that I may make you unhappy,
Unless I get rid of this baggage of the past.

I fear that coming close to you too soon
May make me reckless, restless, blind
Like a gushing river meeting a brick wall
I may break; my broken heart can't afford.

Even as the darkness of my past returns
I am determined to not let it defeat me.
For the dream my eyes see, my heart lives
The dream where we are together, happy.

Sometimes, in this long dark walk alone
I look for your hand; wait for your voice
My heart sinks when there is none,
And I stop for a while to let the tears dry.

But then I pick myself up and trudge along
Towards that uncertain future, that date
It is only hope that keeps me going now
A hope, I hope, that you share with me.