Today, this fateful night, I stand alone

As waves play peacefully on the river.

The wounds of battles past do heal

On this bitter-sweet night I shiver.

I see behind the clothes I left behind

I peeled them harshly off my skin.

No matter how much the pain seemed

I left behind the maddening din.

Who was once a part of me I loved

More than my own earthly existence,

Is tonight a distant memory blurred

Despite my heart's constant resistance.

The words are as harsh as always

Never the ones I sought and gave.

Never did the wagging tongues stop

Never did come the warm embrace.

But the pillars of strength did stand

The healers were out in full strength.

Every blow was matched by a blow

A blow of love that goes any length.

In this last lap of the last chapter

My body waddles through the sand.

Tonight, on this fateful night, I say

Accept, of peace, this solitary hand.

The neat and organised, soon will fall.

When the whiff of adventure wafts

Through the air like revived passion

And when the kid gloves come off.

There will be some blood and some gore

The old heroes shall either faint or die.

New monsters will be born in the minds

And present peace will seem like a lie.

The doors of hope are open once more,

Sunshine obliterating the darkness again.

The wounds of the past have not been lost

But became a forgotten tune I once sang.

Like the phoenix from the proverbial ashes

I know this time I will not rise to fall again.

I know the deeds of the past will be paid,

And the evil eye will surely boomerang.

Your sudden silence pierces my heart

Like a cold, double-headed arrow.

When words halt before they're said

I drown in my chalice of sorrow.

Like a beggar for whom the houses

On the sides of the road are closed.

Only your voice a hope arouses,

Otherwise, in life a gloom is imposed.

I saw the leader of the new world

Run ahead in his sparkling robes.

Multitudes of people behind him

To his bastion he royally strode.

For once, I wanted to follow the king

The new leader of people's delusions.

But in my heart, I'll always want to be

The pall-bearer of ephemeral illusions.

I wish the reins of my mind so fickle

Were placed firmly in my hands' grasp.

I wish the roller-coaster of emotions

Would cease when the reins I clasp.

My body breaks at every new challenge

Now that many storms I've seen die.

No more, no more - it cries out loud

Hopes of a breakthrough say goodbye.

Your love makes me feel secure,

Like a blanket on a freezing night.

It gives me hope for every new day

After a long tunnel, the bright sunlight.

It brings my scattered life together

Like the magnet brings the sharp nails.

With you by my side, today and forever

I know this love is the one that never fails.

There's a drop of hope on the table.

Only a drop, minute and serene.

The harsh winds scratch its surface;

Keeping it together is the hope sanguine.

The eternal fight of hope and doom

Being fought on the surface of the drop.

Even by slight slip of bond of faith

The juggernaut of hope will stop.

The fears that had once bedeviled my mind

The fears that I thought I had finally overcome.

Today, they stare me in the face again,

Forcing me, my past self, again to become.

I then had the gusto of the rebel for my aid

The stamina of the uninitiated by my side.

But today I feel exhausted by the days past

From this fear, I shiver and seek to hide.

The long, infinite horizon of life

An endless expanse of uncertainties.

How then can I make choices today

Not knowing tomorrow's knitty-gritty's?

How can I hit the proverbial bull's-eye

When I don't know where it lies?

How can I choose the speed to run

If my expectations the future belies?